All About April

Spring is in the air. Or at least it should be.

Since it snowed yesterday, I'm hesitating on this whole spring thing.

I can see flowers popping out of the ground though and I can see the people starting to put their furniture out on porches again so that they can sit out there and eat dinner after a long day at work.

I've been thinking about doing something like that in my own dream world too. At my dream house, with a good book, sitting on the front porch, listening to the kids playing somewhere in the neighborhood.

I've been dreaming about houses a lot lately. It's the place that my brain goes to when I can't take the frustration of not being able to find a job/career.

I dream of a good sized house with a covered porch. I dream of the Victorian curved sort of turret where I can curl up with a good book and listen to the rain hit the window panes. I dream of cooking all sorts exotic foods that I've experimented with and the smell of the foods that my mom used to make. I dream of having friends over and eating good food with me while playing board games and chatting.

I dream of having a career too but I'm pretty stuck on that one.

I honestly don't know what to do about that. I've applied to everything I can find and even to places that aren't hiring now. I've been going around like a chicken with my head cut off and I feel twice as useless.

I interviewed last Monday over the phone with a publishing company for their Spanish department but when I wrote a follow-up email to the lady I spoke to, I almost instantly got a rejection email back. It was severely disappointing because it might have been cool to live in Western Chicago with all that big city culture and new things/places to explore.

I also did an interview this past Monday for a jeweler in the Lima mall. It seemed to go well and they scheduled a follow-up for next week. It could be an interesting field to work in and I could get bonuses for meeting goals like selling so much worth of items and other stuff.

I'm still waiting on word from Critical Mix. I have emailed the supervisor and he said that they were still doing interviews so that could still be something that works out in the end... I just wish they would hurry up.

The recruiter in Columbus called the other day to tell me that she may have something for me but she wants to send more than one application to the company at one time so she was hoping to get one more person to put with me before sending my info. It would let me use my Spanish and I'd be in Columbus so that I could bother my little brother all the time if I wanted to.

I can't thank Noah enough for supporting me right now and letting me complain without end about having no money or not being able to do stuff. He has been so good to me and I don't know what I would be doing without him in my life.

We've been looking at places for us to live, I think we may have found one that we'd be able to get with the money he has saved up but I still don't want him to have to do it by himself. I would feel pretty awful about that. It would be nice to have our own place though.

I read the first Game of Thrones book in two weeks. I got really into the story and I recommend it to anyone who likes Lord of the Rings. That high fantasy set in a medieval realm is exactly what I needed to get my mind off everything that had made me frustrated during the day.

We started watching the first season of the show and I'm into that too. It was probably really annoying for Noah because I had a comment for many things that have happened so far but I'm really trying hard to keep my mouth shut. It's just really hard.

I need to find the second book so that I can start reading that and getting my mind off the world while Noah does what he wants to do. I'm pretty annoying when I get bored.

Case in Point: today I got bored and found two plastic Easter eggs. For a while I was entertained by cracking them open and then getting the dang things to go back together. (They wouldn't stay closed.) Then that wasn't entertaining anymore and I had to think of something new to do... So, while Noah was distracted with his video game, I closed them around his hair and let them hang there. He had no idea they were even there until later when he went to push his hair out of his face and pulled his own hair. He probably would have walked out of the house with them if he hadn't moved his hair. It was pretty funny.

Hopefully, my next post will have better news in it than this one. I know that I'm not as upbeat as I could be but I'm doing what I can with what I've been given and I don't know how anyone can do better.

I hope everyone has a very happy Easter holiday, whether you are with family or not. Just make it a happy day like any other. Whether you celebrate the holiday or not, it doesn't matter. Just make yourself happy.

And as always,

Blessed Be